YSR and Chicken story

As we brought up in an environment saying that if we sacrifice something which we like most and pray for a cause ,it will surely happen. So on implementing this two years back when i was reading about the suicides of farmers related to SEZ(social economic zones) in AP i qutted eating chicken, praying god that this should stop or the people behind this should be brought down from the power.

Later on aug 29 2009 i cursed god a lot after reading an article about farmers suicides because of debts. That too for an amount of 10000 rupees.I felt whats the use of me sacrificing something when there is no use or gain from it.I felt so bad that night and went to sleep. But my instinct strongly warned me that something is gonna happen in the next few days.

So as i said after few days i saw a news snippet saying YSR gone missing ,i felt at that moment i recieved some answer to my prayers,next day they declared he was dead in the chopper mishap.I know its just a coincidence .

Though I never thought that something should happen to YSR ,this came as a surprise to me beacuse at the same moment i am planning to start eating chicken and stop believing in god and follow objectivism of ayn rand.

Later now my mind has completely transformed into another stage that i really stopped in believing these standard procedures of rituals to god .Before i used to become so emotional after reading any article about farmers or people suffering. But after much thinking i stopped becoming emotional and thinking in a strange way as "Why should i sacrifice or feel emotional for some one who can not make it in his life"

I still believe that there is something supernatural that creates and guides beyond our limits, but iam strictly trying to stop in believeing about holy books ,procedures,rituals and practices to please god created by some priest ,preacher or a prohphet. Just we need to think according to situation and take a decision and face it as well as handle it.

I realized Its a pretty dumb thing to sacrifice a habit or a thing and expect something to happen in return to it. I think it looks like a business .Its clearly give and take policy.I quit dealing with this business.